Saturday, May 28, 2011
God means what he says. What he says goes. His powerful Word is sharp as a surgeon's scalpel, cutting through everything, whether doubt or defense, laying us open to listen and obey. Nothing and no one is impervious to God's Word. We can't get away from it—no matter what.
Now that we know what we have—Jesus, this great High Priest with ready access to God—let's not let it slip through our fingers. We don't have a priest who is out of touch with our reality. He's been through weakness and testing, experienced it all—all but the sin. So let's walk right up to him and get what he is so ready to give. Take the mercy, accept the help.
Hebrews 4:12-16
Friday, May 27, 2011
Smart gentlemen. these two; sure know how to attract a lady's attention!!!
I couldn't stop starting (mostly trying to figure out what they were reading), so I took a picture.
Yep a paparazzi picture; how humiliating you might say.
The truth is, I was that intrigued in witnessing a good looking guy reading a book! About 89% of the guys I know, claim that they don't enjoy reading and hardly ever read, unless they have to. Well that is just plain wrong. Kind of proves why I avoid all 89% of them.
There's just something there about a young man and a good book together that is so irresistible. That's why I like big cities, whilst walking along the Hrishatik main Kyiv square theres lots of interesting things that will catch your eye....Like a girl almost breaking her foot on mega-huge-shaky-sky-scraper heels, or awesome street musicians, or a perfect cup of latte on the street corner:)
I couldn't stop starting (mostly trying to figure out what they were reading), so I took a picture.
Yep a paparazzi picture; how humiliating you might say.
The truth is, I was that intrigued in witnessing a good looking guy reading a book! About 89% of the guys I know, claim that they don't enjoy reading and hardly ever read, unless they have to. Well that is just plain wrong. Kind of proves why I avoid all 89% of them.
There's just something there about a young man and a good book together that is so irresistible. That's why I like big cities, whilst walking along the Hrishatik main Kyiv square theres lots of interesting things that will catch your eye....Like a girl almost breaking her foot on mega-huge-shaky-sky-scraper heels, or awesome street musicians, or a perfect cup of latte on the street corner:)
Thursday, May 26, 2011
I know I posted this a while back on my twitter (BTW follow me if you haven't already! I always follow back:) But I just want to say again how much I like this new Shawn McDonald song. There is something banal about it, but I can easily overlook it for the lyrics, which are so realistic. He's singing my thoughts. One of my best played songs on the guitar is his Gravity song.
But when you learn a song you start noticing the lyrics more than ever before. Because to sing it good, you have to feel it too. Therefor I came to the conclusion that his songs are a tad bit too depressing for everyday listening, playing, singing.
Still sometimes it's good to cry and at those moments these songs are a nice crutch to lean on.
Actually at those times, Jesus is the stretcher which you need to be carried on..
But when you learn a song you start noticing the lyrics more than ever before. Because to sing it good, you have to feel it too. Therefor I came to the conclusion that his songs are a tad bit too depressing for everyday listening, playing, singing.
Still sometimes it's good to cry and at those moments these songs are a nice crutch to lean on.
Actually at those times, Jesus is the stretcher which you need to be carried on..
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Really mad that I cant change my 'about me' on Face of Kyiv! I wanted to add this huge amazing text about Jesus and my faith.
If I shall be in this competition, which is all in vain and totally pointless anyway, than I might as well shine, like it says in Philippians 2:15-17
Children of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world, holding fast the word of life, so that I may rejoice in the day of Christ that I have not run in vain or labored in vain.
I wish I could've shone any light so that this whole thing I got myself into (out of vain jealousy) would be with at least some point and not a waste of time. Although thank you so much for voting anyway! I feel loved!
If I shall be in this competition, which is all in vain and totally pointless anyway, than I might as well shine, like it says in Philippians 2:15-17
Children of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world, holding fast the word of life, so that I may rejoice in the day of Christ that I have not run in vain or labored in vain.
I wish I could've shone any light so that this whole thing I got myself into (out of vain jealousy) would be with at least some point and not a waste of time. Although thank you so much for voting anyway! I feel loved!
Face of Kyiv. A silly little competition I entered in just to spice up a relationship with my new acquaintance who is also in the competition. I'm really competitive and deciding to be a bit annoying I want to show her that. Mostly because she's so smart when it comes to music, and I'm the spontaneous no-books-no-teachers music smart, which is not that smart I guess. So I was extremely jealous of her musical grammatical snottiness.
But no matter how bad I get, I'd always love to have a friend like me. I'd give her the "prize" for all I care.
Did I mention that the silly competition is only for 18 and up? Ops. Once again, here comes my age.
And once again I'm #1 most voted up there.
Of course.
Just for the love of my blog and I you can still vote me up, let the Christ believers, Jesus lovers win!
But no matter how bad I get, I'd always love to have a friend like me. I'd give her the "prize" for all I care.
Did I mention that the silly competition is only for 18 and up? Ops. Once again, here comes my age.
And once again I'm #1 most voted up there.
Of course.
Just for the love of my blog and I you can still vote me up, let the Christ believers, Jesus lovers win!
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
Majorly, Majorly, majorly updating my ECD website.
Not really that MAJORLY it's just that currently I like starting my sentences with a threesome intro.
Three is the number of perfection? or something like that.
By the way, if you see this ECD title floating round my posts; don't fear; it only stands for my English Club Dream (totally not loving that title for something that I'm in charge of, I mean dream? come on it's like toys r us logo for toddler swimsuits! Oh and here I go critiquing my own work..It's actually fun!) Anyway, if you click on ECD you will jump straight to the club's website.
Which will show you that I don't mean MAJOR when I write it three times.
Nothing's big happened on the website. Not yet.
BUT I think tomorrow is the day of some big news on the website including a brand new video of ECD's second course! It will be uploaded on Vimeo and posted on FB as well; so you will most defiantly not miss it.
And to make this post even more tacky; I'd like to say a nice big thank you to my good sister Esther who took the pains of accepting my ECD video through skype and helping me edit out any weird parts (Like guys who wear ill fitting jeans). And to my dad Benjamin who helped me with filming and correcting my russian spelling.
Now is the time for my tackiest-post-EVER award! WOOT! I love you guys! Something more serious and Biblical coming soon on here, I promise!
Not really that MAJORLY it's just that currently I like starting my sentences with a threesome intro.
Three is the number of perfection? or something like that.
By the way, if you see this ECD title floating round my posts; don't fear; it only stands for my English Club Dream (totally not loving that title for something that I'm in charge of, I mean dream? come on it's like toys r us logo for toddler swimsuits! Oh and here I go critiquing my own work..It's actually fun!) Anyway, if you click on ECD you will jump straight to the club's website.
Which will show you that I don't mean MAJOR when I write it three times.
Nothing's big happened on the website. Not yet.
BUT I think tomorrow is the day of some big news on the website including a brand new video of ECD's second course! It will be uploaded on Vimeo and posted on FB as well; so you will most defiantly not miss it.
And to make this post even more tacky; I'd like to say a nice big thank you to my good sister Esther who took the pains of accepting my ECD video through skype and helping me edit out any weird parts (Like guys who wear ill fitting jeans). And to my dad Benjamin who helped me with filming and correcting my russian spelling.
Now is the time for my tackiest-post-EVER award! WOOT! I love you guys! Something more serious and Biblical coming soon on here, I promise!
Sunday, May 22, 2011
If I was about to start telling you the events that happened these past 3 days; you either wouldn't finish reading such a long post, or you'd hurt yourself laughing so hard. You know those kinds of days that feel like months. And things that you get yourself into that you can imagine telling your grandkids someday. Ok now I feel like I have put into words exactly what I went through these Friday-Sunday days.
I feel like such an expert in Kyiv city life though. I got a job at a boutique! That is until they found out my age. Ughhhh.. such a bummer, I had actually already made such good friends with the staff. Everyone trusted me as their new young and pretty worker. I'd never received so much smiles and appreciation here in Kyiv as I did at my new lovely 1 day job. Totally humbled and humiliated now as I sit facing my ECD tasks and doing little details in my parents' ministry.
I do have too much on my hands to fit in a job in my life currently. I wanted something newish and crazy to try for month or two and it almost happened just like I imagined it would. And than once again I was reminded that throughout my whole life my age has hurt me in every possible way. And here I am ranting about it, like of course, a person my age would do. I'm trying so hard to enjoy my young years. But it feels so rushed and pressured. I don't feel like I ever was young. I'm just a young person who never had youngish fun full of mishap and giggles and everything else that I have no idea what people my age do for fun. I'm going thrifting now. It's my idea of fun when something I hoped for failed. And swimming is very nice too.
I do have too much on my hands to fit in a job in my life currently. I wanted something newish and crazy to try for month or two and it almost happened just like I imagined it would. And than once again I was reminded that throughout my whole life my age has hurt me in every possible way. And here I am ranting about it, like of course, a person my age would do. I'm trying so hard to enjoy my young years. But it feels so rushed and pressured. I don't feel like I ever was young. I'm just a young person who never had youngish fun full of mishap and giggles and everything else that I have no idea what people my age do for fun. I'm going thrifting now. It's my idea of fun when something I hoped for failed. And swimming is very nice too.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Dead, dead dream. Well maybe not dead but most defiantly suffering.
Yes, my life dream is majorly suffering. mainly because forgetting it and thinking its a huge mistake didn't work out.
Didn't work out because my mom has arrived home and each day brings it up.
It's so much easier to float along the flow of life without thinking.
On the bright side, Tomorrow night will be an evangelization event with our church and Youth with a Mission (YWAM). It will be an outside movie night (Fireproof) (Don't act like that movie didnt make you cry) for the region of the Left Bank.
I think it will be really something, and I'm excited so very much!
Just have to put that dying dream to the back of my mind for a little while.
Somehow.
It's great when there's too much going on in life, that way you don't really have time for your feelings. Which is good for melancholy people like me. In my mind everything seems to be suffering.
Yes, my life dream is majorly suffering. mainly because forgetting it and thinking its a huge mistake didn't work out.
Didn't work out because my mom has arrived home and each day brings it up.
It's so much easier to float along the flow of life without thinking.
On the bright side, Tomorrow night will be an evangelization event with our church and Youth with a Mission (YWAM). It will be an outside movie night (Fireproof) (Don't act like that movie didnt make you cry) for the region of the Left Bank.
I think it will be really something, and I'm excited so very much!
Just have to put that dying dream to the back of my mind for a little while.
Somehow.
It's great when there's too much going on in life, that way you don't really have time for your feelings. Which is good for melancholy people like me. In my mind everything seems to be suffering.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Starting to feel mind-sick about seriousness. Simplicity... That's more like it. Note to self of course. This whole blog is a giant note to self. I wouldn't want to be friends with the person I used to be a year ago. Everyone says that, I know.
God is so perfect; thus He's never changing. We're so imperfect; thus in need of constant change.
God is so perfect; thus He's never changing. We're so imperfect; thus in need of constant change.
Monday, May 16, 2011
We deal with about 5 variations of what to do/say/go in an average of 3 hours. Starting from everyday things such as where to eat lunch. And than the more complicated ones, when it comes to relationships, morals.
6 billion humans on earth with all their changing choices so often. But that's not much amazingness when compared with the fact that God knows all of those variations, choices, and even THOUGHTS! Unthinkable. We here try to think through everything. So often we're confused. God knowing everyones THOUGHTS! never gets confused.... That just makes me fall in love with Him so much more.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Photoboothing
Snohshibatelnaya Shula...Where does she learn all that anyway!? hehe.
Befriending photography and my natural hair.
Train trip back to Kiev with my cousin Igor. He's huge help with the luggage.
Messy Chernovograd times.
Thinking of throwing a masquerade ball someday....
Bangs last me one day. Than I regret them and buy hair growth oil!
Setting up for ECD!
She totally does this face thing so much better than me.
Oh no
Here comes that sun again
That means another day
Without you my friend
And it hurts me
To look into the mirror at myself
And it hurts even more
To have to be with somebody else
And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
With so many people
To love in my life
Why do I worry
About one
But you put the happy
In my ness
You put the good times
Into my fun
And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door
Here comes that sun again
That means another day
Without you my friend
And it hurts me
To look into the mirror at myself
And it hurts even more
To have to be with somebody else
And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
With so many people
To love in my life
Why do I worry
About one
But you put the happy
In my ness
You put the good times
Into my fun
And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door
I think? ECD went perfect in every way it could. I loved how it was the most unique thing that I have ever accomplished.
The last meeting went 2 hours over. No one wanted to leave!
The class grew into a family. Personally I have the most fun (and pressure haha!) on the days of class.
I really wanted to go off the mainstream and the typical format of english discussion talking clubs. I thought if I was going to step up and organize and do something serious; than I might as well make it perfect; just the way I want it to be. I loved it. The people loved it. I have new students calling in reserving their spot for the Fall course #3. I made a limit of 13 people per class.
Just really happy that I jumped into life and did something like this. You won't really live a good life until you take nice big risks every now and then. Most of my risks were big flops, but than again, some such as ECD was the no-flop risk..:)
The last meeting went 2 hours over. No one wanted to leave!
The class grew into a family. Personally I have the most fun (and pressure haha!) on the days of class.
I really wanted to go off the mainstream and the typical format of english discussion talking clubs. I thought if I was going to step up and organize and do something serious; than I might as well make it perfect; just the way I want it to be. I loved it. The people loved it. I have new students calling in reserving their spot for the Fall course #3. I made a limit of 13 people per class.
Just really happy that I jumped into life and did something like this. You won't really live a good life until you take nice big risks every now and then. Most of my risks were big flops, but than again, some such as ECD was the no-flop risk..:)
Friday, May 13, 2011
want, want, want, wants
My choices of what I think is footwear perfection:)
Gucci. Which is ironic because I never really liked Gucci, until I saw these, and their stunning spring/summer collection. And it's not the logo or anything, its just that this pair is silicon and looks so comfortable and the color is amazing. I'm really into silicone footwear lately.
Lanvin once again! I can't get over how comfortable and perfect all their shoes look.
Lanvin. Love Lanvin's shoes.
!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
One of the hundreds of things I learned about city life. Or Kiev at least. Is shoes. Ive never been so interested them. I came here with 3 pairs of boots. One pair has already been thrown out. Another had a heel worn to holes. and my The Expensive pair, is being repaired. This proves the many distances I walked. In heels. I had may veins pop out! Too much detail? I'm just warning about these city streets where fashion realms over comfort. Currently. In my mind.
I have worn out all of my summer shoes, from Spring walking! This made me wake up to realize that footwear is of no little importance.
Currentlywalking in the street judging everyone by their choice of feet wear. I've worn out my last pair of ballet flats just traveling around the city comparing all my choices of future shoe collections.
Shoes. Its ridiculous. It's a 160 turn away from who I used to be; someone who couldn't stand for more than 5 minutes in front of shoe displays.
Bad pavement, big distances, new shoes. Reconsidering the importance of footwear.
My about me is officially and possibly forever going to fit inside the book of Psalms. And some bits of other books. It would've been so 'it' to post all my little cute revelations and bible verses, but everyone should do their own personal seeking. I could be wrong of course, wrongness seems to like me lately.
I don't get someone else's revelations 90% of the time, or when they post pages and pages of psalms, I wonder if anyone reads it all off their blog! Maybe someone who really loves them; in love people do anything for each other. These past few days I've tried and somehow lopsided succeeded in being alone with the whole Bible loving kit (journal, pen, highlighter, coffee, chocolates you know how it goes). There is no better book than the Bible... Tomorrow is the last class of ecd.
Funny how I've found myself writing here most when I'm undergoing a gray time in life.. Everyone goes through gray tunnels, only to get out at some point or another... I just wish I didn't eat so much chocolate while getting out.
Upstairs the whole 4rth floor of our apartment is a hotel. I constantly hear heels clicking from 6am - 3am.
Im sorry for the complaints. Its just that about an hour ago I've realized all over again something that I wish I'd never let myself fall into.
Gray tunnel. There's alway going to be a way out.
I don't get someone else's revelations 90% of the time, or when they post pages and pages of psalms, I wonder if anyone reads it all off their blog! Maybe someone who really loves them; in love people do anything for each other. These past few days I've tried and somehow lopsided succeeded in being alone with the whole Bible loving kit (journal, pen, highlighter, coffee, chocolates you know how it goes). There is no better book than the Bible... Tomorrow is the last class of ecd.
Funny how I've found myself writing here most when I'm undergoing a gray time in life.. Everyone goes through gray tunnels, only to get out at some point or another... I just wish I didn't eat so much chocolate while getting out.
Upstairs the whole 4rth floor of our apartment is a hotel. I constantly hear heels clicking from 6am - 3am.
Im sorry for the complaints. Its just that about an hour ago I've realized all over again something that I wish I'd never let myself fall into.
Gray tunnel. There's alway going to be a way out.
Remembering the times when my phone was silent. Or no, wait, the times when I had no phone. Which was less than a year ago! Now I'm trying to manage my over flowing inbox and missed calls from people who "will be by you all night long" and "crazily long for some time with you, the time with you is impossible to forget". CREEPY! OK! Get some tact please.
I guess I don't know how to manage untactful, clingy, stalker relationships. Only cleaning up the inbox after them.
Monday, May 9, 2011
You would think that a reload trip far away would really start something new and erase all things you'd want it to. But of course not. Thats just not the way of nature. I came back from Chernovograd with a whole new beginning of confusion and weird relationships; like I don't have enough of that.
I like blogger. I can come here to rant and vent and no one minds.. thats really nice.
Instrumental music has been my soundtrack. Nothing else feels right anymore.
I've been questioning a lot of my so called foundations in life. And than coming right back to them, agreeing that everything else is just nothing.
Can't people see it? It's so obvious. It all begins and ends with God. And Jesus Christ is not a slang you use when you loose your temper; Jesus Christ is the biggest example of perfection and love.
Perfection and love. Something I'm not. I just want to be left alone forever, at the same time I'm afraid of that. No more trips for me. I'm staying right where I'm at.
But of course. Rules are made to be broken.
I like blogger. I can come here to rant and vent and no one minds.. thats really nice.
Instrumental music has been my soundtrack. Nothing else feels right anymore.
I've been questioning a lot of my so called foundations in life. And than coming right back to them, agreeing that everything else is just nothing.
Can't people see it? It's so obvious. It all begins and ends with God. And Jesus Christ is not a slang you use when you loose your temper; Jesus Christ is the biggest example of perfection and love.
Perfection and love. Something I'm not. I just want to be left alone forever, at the same time I'm afraid of that. No more trips for me. I'm staying right where I'm at.
But of course. Rules are made to be broken.
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