Thursday, July 14, 2011

We will never know God's character all the way. Damn I dont think we'll even get close. 
Everyone talks so much about the characters of God. Especially the character love. 
What they say is true. But why do we get so lost in His amazing love and never really pay attention to His wrath (which sometimes might seem unreasonable just because we never see the whole picture). 
Merciful, Loving, forgiving, generous. We can't just study, name, and teach everyone who God is. Because we don't know nothing even close to his greatness. 
I'm not saying that we shouldn't try. 
The Lord examines the righteous, but the wicked and those who love violence His soul hates. On the wicked He will rain fiery coals and burning sulfur, a scorching wind. 
Psalm 11:5-6

Thursday, July 7, 2011

My computer (as always) is over-full and overworked, because it seems like everyone who comes into our house thinks this is a public computer with free internet for everyone. But that's not the problem. The problem is THAT I JUST DELETED PERMANENTLY SOOO MANY PICTURES (including all my newish pictures on facebook, because it was linked to iphoto trash) I HAAAATTTTEEEE IPHOOOOTOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! I NEEEEDDD TO VEEEEENNNNNTTTTTT!!!! GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH KDJSFGGGHHHBBBMNSGFYUREFGI;OEWIO;DJKSGHFJYWTAR3ILQW3UEWJ,DGSHJS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As somewhat of an amateur photographer, I feel like a part of my heart has been chipped away. I hate iphoto. I hate losing my pictures forever. I hate using the word hate so much. 
Don't get me wrong,  I've actually have been having some really good 2 weeks so far... Yesterday I just wanted to sing to the world a top a bridge about what a good day it had been. But tonight.... ugh my pictures were so dear to me.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Where I want to be? In a forest, on the border of a big river... a fire at night... A cold swim in the early dewy morning..boating, canoeing, picking berries. Maybe having a nice small crowd of enjoyable people.
 I remember not so long ago I was wishing of living in a metropolitan area, the subways, hundreds of people every minute passing by, the rush, the quick life full of so many events that you can't even remember what you did yesterday. Because yesterday suddenly feels like forever ago. The never ending pumping noise, people's random conversations, beeping cars, kids, music, birds at times, puddles splashing, cement, feet walking. A city's rhyme.
Now I'm in the midst of it. No shut window can keep the sound silent for a while.
Just thinking how the human nature is never satisfied.
Where do you want to be?

Friday, July 1, 2011

Going through that 'wanting to be at two places at one time' phase. It's JULY!!!!!! And it will be an exciting month. I want to figure out which path to choose this week, which will set off the end of my summer in a definite direction..
Yesterday I want boating with my two brother cousins. I love the water.. Boating is so relaxing... and I couldn't stop myself from saying "this is soo cool" over and over again, I might have driven my brothers crazy. I got to row the boat too! Also we wandered and dinner-ed around the carnival and later hit off towards a movie-party at my friend's work place's club. Pizza, Pirates of the Caribbean, kvas, latte, and billiard. My new heels kind of killed my feet last night/early morning. I'm soaking them in bread, boiled water, and oil. Good way to end June? haha..
Now I have to start setting up for church tonight.
Our house is bursting with over-nighter-summer guests. Help. Me.