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Snohshibatelnaya Shula...Where does she learn all that anyway!? hehe.

Befriending photography and my natural hair.

Train trip back to Kiev with my cousin Igor. He's huge help with the luggage.

Messy Chernovograd times. 

Thinking of throwing a masquerade ball someday....

Bangs last me one day. Than I regret them and buy hair growth oil!

Setting up for ECD!

She totally does this face thing so much better than me. 

Oh no
Here comes that sun again
That means another day
Without you my friend
And it hurts me
To look into the mirror at myself
And it hurts even more
To have to be with somebody else
And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
With so many people
To love in my life
Why do I worry
About one
But you put the happy
In my ness
You put the good times
Into my fun
And it's so hard to do
And so easy to say
But sometimes
Sometimes you just have to walk away
Walk away
And head for the door

I think? ECD went perfect in every way it could. I loved how it was the most unique thing that I have ever accomplished.
The last meeting went 2 hours over. No one wanted to leave!
The class grew into a family. Personally I have the most fun (and pressure haha!) on the days of class.
I really wanted to go off the mainstream and the typical format of english discussion talking clubs. I thought if I was going to step up and organize and do something serious; than I might as well make it perfect; just the way I want it to be. I loved it. The people loved it. I have new students calling in reserving their spot for the Fall course #3. I made a limit of 13 people per class.
Just really happy that I jumped into life and did something like this. You won't really live a good life until you take nice big risks every now and then. Most of my risks were big flops, but than again, some such as ECD was the no-flop risk..:)

want, want, want, wants

My choices of what I think is footwear perfection:)

Lanvin. Love Lanvin's shoes. 

Gucci. Which is ironic because I never really liked Gucci, until I saw these, and their stunning spring/summer collection. And it's not the logo or anything, its just that this pair is silicon and looks so comfortable and the color is amazing. I'm really into silicone footwear lately.

Lanvin once again! I can't get over how comfortable and perfect all their shoes look.

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One of the hundreds of things I learned about city life. Or Kiev at least. Is shoes. Ive never been so interested them. I came here with 3 pairs of boots. One pair has already been thrown out. Another had a heel worn to holes. and my The Expensive pair, is being repaired. This proves the many distances I walked. In heels. I had may veins pop out! Too much detail? I'm just warning about these city streets where fashion realms over comfort. Currently. In my mind.
 I have worn out all of my summer shoes, from Spring walking! This made me wake up to realize that footwear is of no little importance.
Currentlywalking in the street judging everyone by their choice of feet wear. I've worn out my last pair of ballet flats just traveling around the city comparing all my choices of future shoe collections.
Shoes. Its ridiculous. It's a 160 turn away from who I used to be; someone who couldn't stand for more than 5 minutes in front of shoe displays.
Bad pavement, big distances, new shoes. Reconsidering the importance of footwear. 

Begin being awake.

My about me is officially and possibly forever going to fit inside the book of Psalms. And some bits of other books. It would've been so 'it' to post all my little cute revelations and bible verses, but everyone should do their own personal seeking. I could be wrong of course, wrongness seems to like me lately.
I don't get someone else's revelations 90% of the time, or when they post pages and pages of psalms, I wonder if anyone reads it all off their blog! Maybe someone who really loves them; in love people do anything for each other. These past few days I've tried and somehow lopsided succeeded in being alone with the whole Bible loving kit (journal, pen, highlighter, coffee, chocolates you know how it goes). There is no better book than the Bible... Tomorrow is the last class of ecd.
Funny how I've found myself writing here most when I'm undergoing a gray time in life.. Everyone goes through gray tunnels, only to get out at some point or another... I just wish I didn't eat so much chocolate while getting out.
Upstairs the whole 4rth floor of our apartment is a hotel. I constantly hear heels clicking from 6am - 3am.
Im sorry for the complaints. Its just that about an hour ago I've realized all over again something that I wish I'd never let myself fall into.
Gray tunnel. There's alway going to be a way out.

Remembering the times when my phone was silent. Or no, wait, the times when I had no phone. Which was less than a year ago!  Now I'm trying to manage my over flowing inbox and missed calls from people who "will be by you all night long" and "crazily long for some time with you, the time with you is impossible to forget". CREEPY! OK! Get some tact please.

I guess I don't know how to manage untactful, clingy, stalker relationships. Only cleaning up the inbox after them.

clean...

You would think that a reload trip far away would really start something new and erase all things you'd want it to. But of course not. Thats just not the way of nature. I came back from Chernovograd with a whole new beginning of confusion and weird relationships; like I don't have enough of that.
I like blogger. I can come here to rant and vent and no one minds.. thats really nice.
Instrumental music has been my soundtrack. Nothing else feels right anymore.
I've been questioning a lot of my so called foundations in life. And than coming right back to them, agreeing that everything else is just nothing.
Can't people see it? It's so obvious. It all begins and ends with God. And Jesus Christ is not a slang you use when you loose your temper; Jesus Christ is the biggest example of perfection and love.
Perfection and love. Something I'm not. I just want to be left alone forever, at the same time I'm afraid of that. No more trips for me. I'm staying right where I'm at.
But of course. Rules are made to be broken.

Today.. Starts off a busy few days. Managing not only a party-ish thing tonight, but also teaching and leading a class on a lesson about... you will never guess; Resumes and Cover Letters! The irony of life. I've never even had an official job to apply and send those letters to. But I did do my study and homework well, I feel like an expert now, I had to get to that feeling, the weight of ECD pushed me towards so much responsibility, I had to find ways to get to feelings of peace and expert-ness. Lol to all of that.
After the great night tonight, which is about to start in a few hours, I'm planning to have a chocolate mask for my face to rejuvenate for the days ahead.
Tomorrow to the dentist I go, if you really want to know, it will be an orthodontist. I don't want to talk about it. My teeth need to be perfect. Thats all.
After the dentist I plan to stuff my face with lattes and chocolates and cake, and than off to a shopping trip I go with my dad. Because the next day we're hosting a big old party for our church in honor of Jesus Christ being alive.
In the midst of that I'm packing myself and Shula. Saturday church, than straight from there I run with Shula, and Igor with our suitcases in hand to the train station and away away away we ride off to Chernovagrad from which I don't know what to expect. My sister's birthday (cousin). I've stored up some riskness in my stuff for late nights of fun dares after I put Shula to sleep. Sunday theres this all day picnic in the forest with their church, I love that kind of stuff. I'll try to get lost in the forest, my ultimate goal for the trip. Because I won't be gone long. By Wednesday Im back again and ECD will wrack my brain once more.
Heres to the week! and you, have a good one.

I bought bright red tights for Spring. Bright things that you've never worn before..almost kind of symbolizes new beginnings. Which is true in my case because in about 5 days? On Wednesday is the first lesson of the 2nd course of ecd.
And to be honest, I'm frazzled by that. I don't have much planned, didn't do my 'brainstorming/ studying' about how these lessons should proceed.
What I wanted to do was just go along with whatever happens, making sure that everyone spoke loads of english by asking them lots of questions and breaking them into groups for talking.
Today is my last day of 'vacation'.. Going out for an irish coffee. Wish me love.
After 5 weeks I will let you know how it went!

It's been four days... but I know April can't even begin without me saying hello to it (due to the STILL chilly weather here); so Hello April! treat us well these next 27 days!