I can't remain in this state. Change is ringing in my ears, and if thats the only thing that I hear than I will act upon it. I'll change everything I've built up. Focusing on Jesus, even if I don't see Him, even if I don't hear Him, but I know He's real, He's more real than the chair in front of me or the trees outside. There is something bigger going on outside of this earth, life, days. we can't just remain content with where we are now.